The return of the unreasonable aggressor, Part: 9218043981489294018490189384190382^92814981291092381293810109248120984
Okay, the unreasonable one has struck again, and this time, our beloved monitor of the computer is taken away to the accursed cabinet, sealed away by the key. So what did uni do this time to deserve this?
I'll tell you: NOT STUDYING INTENSIVELY AFTER THE EXAMS!
Oh bullsh*t that old bull. I worked hard for that damn exam, and I improved in both results and ranking. Instead of at least acknowledging that I put in more effort, he says I'm lazy, blah blah. If not why my english and Amaths got a b4, my results sucks, and all that load of crap. He focuses mainly on my FAILURES, amplifies and exaggerates them, all in the name of HELPING ME! Wow, should i feel touched? Should i feel touched at statements being hurled to me like:
YOU ARE GONNA GROW UP TO BE A ROAD SWEEPER WHEN YOU GROW UP! YOU'RE GONNA SCAVENGE FOOD IN THE DUMPS AND ROT! (in chinese)
IMO, that guy has no logic what-so-ever in him. This is what i think goes into his head:
Everything i do: Right, Justice, Infallible, Mandate of Heaven
Everything i hate: Wrong, Biasness, Fallible, Abomination of Heaven
After the exams, i needa chill, like i've chilled everytime for the past 9 years, to rest my bloody head cramming those formulas and facts into my head. It's like a damn computer, you let it download stuff for a month without turning it off, you shut it down completely for a day or two. So there i was, listening to music and rogging (it refers to camping for a boss monster in maple) in my FIRST hour of touching the computer, he woke up from his nap, saw me playing, scream like some insane bitch high from pot and morphine, came to me, spammed nonsensically on my keyboard, and ripped out the monitor.
And after that, he tells me to study.
.....
So, according to common sense, what did our great hero cum philanthropist cum prophert of my future do wrong?
Ans: Telling me to study right after pissing me off.
Who the hell studies right after getting scolded? The first thing that flashed into my head was boycotting all my papers and scoff at him saying YOU HATE MY GRADES? HERE! HATE THEM MORE! Nevertheless, his actions only fuels my hatred towards education and unwillingness to study. I wanted to revise my chemistry today, right after i had some fun. But noo, he had to ruin it. So i spent my day writing a thousand word composition about how much i hate my father and with my mind still swirling with loathe, despising every action of his which he often think is right.
"Am i losing my sanity?" I found myself asking that out of the blue. It was my consciousness. "Screw up your tests for a father like him? You're dumping your future for a hypocritical control freak!" Then i found myself in the middle of two conflicting sides," Study, and you've lost your right, you'll be proving that he's right and he'll get what he wants."
He aims only to ridicule me. To shine a dark light in front of others and isolate me to the mental place of worthless-ness in front of his friends. Take the day before the chinese O lvls for example. My ex-chinese tutor from Pri sch (Mrs Pang, she's a great teacher which brought my chinese from an E to an A*) called to wish me luck for tommorrow. HE, just picked up the phone, and remarked," AYE! You call the lazyworm for what? He today play the computer, i ask him read the chi yu shou ce he talk back at me! Gonna fail tommorrow la him!"
Facts: Yes i was on the computer and did not study the Ci Yu Shou Ce.
Reason: I was reading newspaper articles from channel news asia forums about views of ppl on certain issues (eg, casino) so as to boost my knowledge for bao zhang du hou gan and any sane student will NOT be studying the Ci Yu Shou Ce even if there's one cuz its useless and out of syllybus.
Enough about this person, i think even jesus loved judas more then my father's actions loving me. I am sick, disgusted, displeased, jaded, revolted, satiated, tired, weary from all his actions. Recently, everyday, he steams fish, forces me to eat them even though he knows i hated fish. He says its good for me whereas scientific facts says that fish contains minute amounts of mecury and that if you eat too much of it, may god bless you yadda yadda. And bringing up that shit about african children starving so much without anything to eat? I feel like telling him why not feel glad you're still alive if i'm a sadistical emotionally unstable child about to kill him in his sleep like one of those morbid novels i've red.
Any amount of reasoning could not get through to him. It all seems to filter through him like, LIES! PROPAGANDA! MADE UP STUFF BY KID! INACCURATE! WRONG! Life does resemble that female prejudiced vacuum cleaner doesn't it?
I'll tell you: NOT STUDYING INTENSIVELY AFTER THE EXAMS!
Oh bullsh*t that old bull. I worked hard for that damn exam, and I improved in both results and ranking. Instead of at least acknowledging that I put in more effort, he says I'm lazy, blah blah. If not why my english and Amaths got a b4, my results sucks, and all that load of crap. He focuses mainly on my FAILURES, amplifies and exaggerates them, all in the name of HELPING ME! Wow, should i feel touched? Should i feel touched at statements being hurled to me like:
YOU ARE GONNA GROW UP TO BE A ROAD SWEEPER WHEN YOU GROW UP! YOU'RE GONNA SCAVENGE FOOD IN THE DUMPS AND ROT! (in chinese)
IMO, that guy has no logic what-so-ever in him. This is what i think goes into his head:
Everything i do: Right, Justice, Infallible, Mandate of Heaven
Everything i hate: Wrong, Biasness, Fallible, Abomination of Heaven
After the exams, i needa chill, like i've chilled everytime for the past 9 years, to rest my bloody head cramming those formulas and facts into my head. It's like a damn computer, you let it download stuff for a month without turning it off, you shut it down completely for a day or two. So there i was, listening to music and rogging (it refers to camping for a boss monster in maple) in my FIRST hour of touching the computer, he woke up from his nap, saw me playing, scream like some insane bitch high from pot and morphine, came to me, spammed nonsensically on my keyboard, and ripped out the monitor.
And after that, he tells me to study.
.....
So, according to common sense, what did our great hero cum philanthropist cum prophert of my future do wrong?
Ans: Telling me to study right after pissing me off.
Who the hell studies right after getting scolded? The first thing that flashed into my head was boycotting all my papers and scoff at him saying YOU HATE MY GRADES? HERE! HATE THEM MORE! Nevertheless, his actions only fuels my hatred towards education and unwillingness to study. I wanted to revise my chemistry today, right after i had some fun. But noo, he had to ruin it. So i spent my day writing a thousand word composition about how much i hate my father and with my mind still swirling with loathe, despising every action of his which he often think is right.
"Am i losing my sanity?" I found myself asking that out of the blue. It was my consciousness. "Screw up your tests for a father like him? You're dumping your future for a hypocritical control freak!" Then i found myself in the middle of two conflicting sides," Study, and you've lost your right, you'll be proving that he's right and he'll get what he wants."
He aims only to ridicule me. To shine a dark light in front of others and isolate me to the mental place of worthless-ness in front of his friends. Take the day before the chinese O lvls for example. My ex-chinese tutor from Pri sch (Mrs Pang, she's a great teacher which brought my chinese from an E to an A*) called to wish me luck for tommorrow. HE, just picked up the phone, and remarked," AYE! You call the lazyworm for what? He today play the computer, i ask him read the chi yu shou ce he talk back at me! Gonna fail tommorrow la him!"
Facts: Yes i was on the computer and did not study the Ci Yu Shou Ce.
Reason: I was reading newspaper articles from channel news asia forums about views of ppl on certain issues (eg, casino) so as to boost my knowledge for bao zhang du hou gan and any sane student will NOT be studying the Ci Yu Shou Ce even if there's one cuz its useless and out of syllybus.
Enough about this person, i think even jesus loved judas more then my father's actions loving me. I am sick, disgusted, displeased, jaded, revolted, satiated, tired, weary from all his actions. Recently, everyday, he steams fish, forces me to eat them even though he knows i hated fish. He says its good for me whereas scientific facts says that fish contains minute amounts of mecury and that if you eat too much of it, may god bless you yadda yadda. And bringing up that shit about african children starving so much without anything to eat? I feel like telling him why not feel glad you're still alive if i'm a sadistical emotionally unstable child about to kill him in his sleep like one of those morbid novels i've red.
Any amount of reasoning could not get through to him. It all seems to filter through him like, LIES! PROPAGANDA! MADE UP STUFF BY KID! INACCURATE! WRONG! Life does resemble that female prejudiced vacuum cleaner doesn't it?
posted by † Misère Noire † at
5:42 AM
2 Comments:
Oh dear.
I don't know what to say. Except that most parents really do care for their kids, but they may show it the wrong way?
Cool down. Study for your own sake, your own future if you find it so hard to study for your parents.
Perhaps if you can TRY to explain things nicely to your parents, instead of shouting or talking back, they may just be able to see things from your point of view.
Try ok?? If he shouts at you, and you shout back, the situation is already on the road to chaos. But if you count to 10, then explain what you are doing calmly and in an even tone of voice, it may just turn things around.
aw uniboy! we're gonna chill together ok!?
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